really happening

 

wow, hi guys

it's been awhile, NOT because i dont want to write, but my laptop... broke

350 ringgit later, and the laptop is here !


guys, i have so much to tell, where do i even begin

let's start with the most important thing 

I got a scholarship guys !!!

a maybank scholarship !!

after working hard for so long, and a few of depressive episodes, i made it!

i couldn't be more proud of myself, it was hard, a bit of a rough journey to get there, but i made it

im so grateful, alhamdulillah 

e induction camp, i was a little bit anxious before going since- well, i will be meeting strangers but i had the best time there ! so many brilliant peeps, i really really enjoy my time with them, going to see each other again at the bootcamp next year !!


the reason why i havent been active these past 5 months is... yes my laptop broke and also-

i was taking my break, in any .... social engagement, physical engagement... like i really took my time to rest because idk dude, last semester's week 13-14 was helllllllllllllllllllllll for me, like it... really really draining me up, and i had some depressive episodes, affecting other people that around me too, that time

i dont know- somedays i just want to be alone and that is already a huge relief 

but i get it, if people dont get me, i dont expect them to get me, but don't talk shit about me please

im on my second year now, week 1, as a maybank scholar

its unbelievable, so many bad things had happened and i will assume this is my reward, for all the sacrifices, my tears,my hardwork, mom's prayers, everyone's support

thank you guys, thank you for all the support


aimar, my love, you're the best person ever in the world, such a gentleman, kind-hearted man, makes me feel seen, showers me with all the love you can give, gives me support when i feel im not doing enough, listens to my problems at all costs, 

i love you, so much

i pray that whatever that comes at us, we will going through it together, forever

i already imagine how it's like for both of us, and it's looking so good

i love you, everything about you


ill write more guys, im tired , see u in the next one !


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