blog #85

 

hello everyone, it's me 

the last entry was on 26th march i think, and that was like almost a month ago.

i got influenza guys :(( i got it a week before raya and it suckeddddddddddd

i was very weak and on the verge of dying, well i ddin't know i had influenza, i thought it's just a normal high fever but yeah, influenza

i dont want to skip any class but oh hell nah, if i go to class anyways i wouldnt pay attention. eventually mom asked me to go home earlier than i should, like 3 days before i was supposedly home.  on the bus i was... dying, and it was so weird, it only has 3 people in the bus including the driver himself. i thought i was on the wrong bus for a second. but it is weird considering its near raya season. 

alhamdulillah im well now, but there's something that makes me uneasy. i feel anxious at all time and its getting difficult to breathe like any normal person would. i don't know the reason, i thought about it for awhile and i really don't know. i feel anxious, i feel like im tired. 

but maybe it's nothing, i hope tomorrow is a better day

im in dengkil now, i have like 4-5 weeks left. 

and i got attached to this place

there are so many assignments, and exams are coming

im anxious about everything. 

and guys, my boyfriend is so so in love

me too, im so in love too

we had been fighting quite a lot during raya break but i just love him even more after the fights

the way he talk to me about him, about us makes me feel like he is serious and not playing around

he reassures me and im so thankful

i love you, boyfriend


i am already tired writing this short blog. see you on the next one

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