i don't know why i wanted to write here, i wanted to talk. I just realised I havent verbally talk to anyone today. 

and it somehow feels heavy,

midterm test is around and i really hope i can do it well.

i feel heavy, am i not being grateful of things i have, right now in my life

do i keep complaining about what i want rather than being grateful of what i've  gotten

but

am i wrong to longed about the things i want

i want to write letters, i want to receive letters

i want to love someone, i want to be loved deeply

i want to be pretty, i want people to think im pretty

are these wrong for me to hope for ?

i do not even deserve to have all of these ?

i love what i  have right now, i love my boyfriend, my life

but is that the way i want to be loved though ?

im sorry, i just need a place to rant, and here is the safest place i can go.


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