happy birthday, love

 

hi everyone, it's me, syaf

2 days ago was my love's 19th birthday

and in the midst of craziness in dengkil, we took a day off to spend together, celebrating our first-of-birthdays together.

i love him guys, and i am falling in love even more when he loves me too. 

i am not the type who's giving only one present, if i can- i will give everything he wants, anything he wants. just to make him feel loved, and happy

but it's such a shame, i bought 2 presents for him online, one was stolen ( thank god i got it back ) and one is stuck at the shipping place, i feel bad, i feel like its not enough. 

on his birthday, we met for lunch and he opened the one present i gave, it's something that he already mentioned before but i am really worried he doesn't like it. i wrote him TWO letters, but i (totally) made it difficult to read, because yk every man needs a challenge. I might cried a little bit after he opened it, i don't know, i just really scared of what he thinks, ( or what other people think )

but he said he loved it and i couldn't be more relived. So, on 17th we went out to celebrate and went for a little bit of shopping. one of the things i love about him is that he has this huge patience for something, i do too- but not as much as his. He's so patient in like buying stuffs he wants or what not, if it was me, and if i have money- i would've just buy it. but little did we know, he has been saving up his own money to spend a lot on his birthday, for him to buy anything he wants. and i think it's so cute.

we went to trx at first, it's my second time being in lrt. i can get used to that kind of life, i love it actually. 

we went out to eat and it's been a long time since we had thai food ( our favourite kind of food ! )

soo we ate some thai food and walked, to ONLY 3 main stores to all the malls we went to

uniqlo, h&m, muji

... goddamn this man, fancy

or im just that poor

anyways after trx, that man dragged me to pavillion and the other malls surrounds it. and we went to the same stores -_-.. But i love it, i love going out to shop even though it's not my stuffs, seeing all those shopping bags is therapeutic. and i love seeing him trying on clothes he wanted for a very long time, anddd he looks so good in those. 

i didn't know that between the cross walks there are people out there selling flowers. and i have been hinting for a very long time actually to get a flower -_-. but he did guys, at last. it's not the kind of flowers that i want, not a fresh flower but its crocheted ones. and i love it even more, i don't even love roses before but now i do. it's so cute and sweet, he cares about me. 

oh and guys, i bought him a new phone case. why i made this such a big deal ? because it's expensive ( insert crying face emoji ) but not gonna lie, i would buy it too for myself. and he loves it, and its his birthday so why not. 

there are few people asking me to go out with them too, the day i went out with aimar. the truth is, it's not like i don't want to meet you people. I told you i was busy and i indeed am busy. you have no idea how chaotic my last friday went, just to free up a day to go out with him. it might look like i am choosing a side, i love him and i love you guys too, but if you were in my shoes, you might be doing the same as me. i have never been happier with a person like this, and he is worth it. 

if my instincts is right this time, he is definitely worth it.

to my fancy guy,

we are 19, actually you are 19, im still 18 :p. God knows where the road takes us in the future, but i love being here every minute of the day, we are still growing and we might do some silly mistakes and what not, and its completely natural. 

i love the way you talk to me, like how i always want in a person. 

i love the way you care for me, and thank you- if i never said enough

there's one thing though, you can always talk to me about anything. even if its a stupid thing, or something unnecessary or something random. anything- because i love talking to you even if its just a nonsense talk. 

happy 19th birthday my love, it's unexpected how we are ended up together and i do love surprises in life, at least this one is. and i am happy with you, and you are just enough for me ( not for anyone else, ladies back off). i love you

i might sound a little bit obsessed in here, but im just in love, guys. im sorry,  if you think i dont deserve any love, but i am in love, am i not someone who can be in love too ?

again, im sorry.

me with sour drinks
fancy guy w bags 





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