rebound

 

hello it's me

i was studying for my finals. then something struck me- is he a rebound

he treats me well, loves me like he said he is, talks to me well. aren't that the things that i've been asking for this time. to a wrong person


it's almost 5 months since the break up. Well, it's not easy to forget the once important person in your life, It won't just take a day or a week to forget, a lifetime maybe. Maybe it was my fault too, I was caught up by loving him, so hard, i've given it my all in hopes he appreciate and well-loves me more. What i did wasn't enough apparently. so he started to treating me bad as if he losing his feelings. I was tired being treated like somebody he didn't want to talk, to love- i was tired begging him explaining what's wrong with us, is there something i can do to fix it- he just losing his feelings and didnt want to call it off first.

are all men like that? so scared to even speak your own feelings or you all just playing with someone's feelings ? or your ego is so high up till you're so confident that everybody will love you- just because one did hard ?

what i am feeling right now is all scattered everywhere. my mind is scattered everywhere, all over the places. i feel guilty but i can't help it, it would take forever to forget about amar. am i just gonna go pass through time waiting to forget about him. i love the way my boyfriend treating me now, 

but sometimes i feel

guilty

and scared.


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