my birthday !

 

hello it's me.

I turned 18 today

It is my birthday and my first day in dengkil. 3:56 pm right now and i just ate. i ate alone because my roommate already eaten and i dont want to bother her to teman me makan. so i eat alone but im fine with it. 

i wasnt gonna blog about my first day here

what im trying to blog about is 

im single now :))))))))))))))

yea yea if u read my blog from the beginning until now, you'll know 

i gave a second chance to the a person. but he made the same mistake again and again

i was patient 

i gave him time as long as he need

but you cant change people that doesnt wanna be changed 

im just asking to be loved, because he did say he was and i believed it

and he did love me 

at some point

initially

but it changes

him not me

but its fine 

i was begging and crying just to be treated right

how dumb was that

i know i shouldnt but i did

i was stupid

but as entering a new age, a new life

you know what, im not gonna let myself get that same treatment like that

i loved hard and i do love, but i loved the wrong person and it is fine

he teaches me something in my life that no one will ever will

and i think i am too for him

sure you would find another lover, but i dont think u ever get the same one like me

i moved on quickly because im tired already, im tired begging for you, i jadi tawar hati so its not that hard for me to get used to this kind of feelings, because i felt it already when we were still together

thank you for all the memories you gave me, i have no hard feelings for you, i dont hate you despite whatever you did to me. I hope you live your life well, study well. I would never hate you but yeah youre right, it is better for us this way. 

thank you amar, i love the memories we had together