moon

bad days tend to happen , I know that

I do have my own as well

but it sucks seeing your loved ones having a bad day and you just couldn't do anything about it , not that they wanted to get helped - i mean they're just want to be alone for a while , I know it , I understand exactly how it feels and I totally agree with it. You just want to be alone , not texting people , not communicating with people , have no absolute mood to do anything , maybe few things that you love - to keep you going in a day I assumed.

My loved one had or has a bad day . I don't really know now because he seems not in the level of his good mood yet , probably like 3/10 . his head hurts , keeps on sneezing which this may sounds like I'm a creep but I like listen to him sneezing , okay - maybe that's too much information , but it is what it is and it's cute ok , i like cute things especially on him ( sounds like a creep also but i dont think i am ) 

my boyfriend , if you are reading this - I HOPE YOU ARE CUZ WHO ELSE THIS ENTIRE BLOG IS ABOUT - 

i just can't be mad at you and i hope you don't take it as an opportunity for you to take things for granted , i just love any seconds of you are , any versions of you are , any days are you on , and I just can't be mad and I truly completely love you. Sounds obsessive ? maybe but hey it's my boyfriend. 

Your feelings are valid and important to me 

and so as mine to you , I hope

I don't want us to be only like a high school love - the ones that you can be replaced with in 2 months or the ones that you can thought it was just for one phase 

I want us to be like this type of thing , the ones where you brag with your friends because your girlfriend wants you to sleep a bit early , the ones where you can say my girlfriend wrote a blog about me to ur friends , the ones that you feel fun and love every seconds of it even if we argue , the ones that you feel comfortable to say your inner thoughts , the ones that we both appreciate each other , trying to be better together , probably not gonna questioned each other , the ones where we trust each other 

Sometimes you are annoyed or I am annoyed 

You are having a bad day or I am

It's true - it's just another phase 

I'm just scared you gonna leave 

that's all 

because one time is enough i don't need the second one

and ik i shouldnt even think about it

But I'll try to not make things go wrong , I'll try to be better , maybe not thinking too much , not gonna promise in case you get disappointed later but I can assure you I will try the best that I can

im writing on here because i dont want you to get even more depressed , but heeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy we're not SUPPOSED TO GET DEPRESSED OKAAY this is just us fixing things , and i like it this way , and u better like it as well cuz i already planned us 50 years in the future - jk - no im not - yes i am - idk - u decide 

Im sorry for all the things I've done , the things I say , ok 

i love you sayang 

( oh im sorry if theres anybody else reading this blog ,um i appreciate that u wanna read my blog , no words can tell u how grateful i am , but um , yea this is cute ok , at least for me . .  THIS IS CUTE , writing about my boyfriend who had a bad day , um and please dont vomit on ur phone screen , sorry :P )