guess you're asleep

 


sometimes I wondered 

I have nothing compared to others

Not that pretty , not that smart , not that interesting

they are

I'm completely not

sometimes I wondered 

if what I have now is not supposed to be mine

and if it's not

then I'll be crushed in any way

but that's just selfish

to keep whatever I thought once is mine

rather than to let it have its own joy


I'm confused

whether to let go or let it be

if I let it go , I'll be 

a total loser 

if I let it be , still like

a total loser


As far as I think about it

Deep down in the bottom of my heart

so many

worries

my dear lamp post , I feel like I just keep you for my own. I might not be enough and 

for some reason , I feel like this because there are few friends which I think they'll love do whatever you do

and I'll be honest 

I'm afraid if someday

you left once again with the same old reason

not that I don't love whatever you do , I love all those things,  but trust me wallahi

I don't find myself love and enjoy the things that you suggest me to

and it sucks

it totally breaks my heart every time

every single time

everytime

I thought about it and I feel very stupid 

I feel hopeless

I feel not enough



what should I do

what should I do

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