confessions

 maybe things would work out if I understand you better

maybe things would work out if I took part in your life

maybe things would work out if I tried new things , making me look attractive for some reason

maybe things would work out if I had my patience , waiting for at least a response

maybe things would  work out if I had not listened to whatever they said , they made fun of me

maybe things would work out if I understand you better , giving you space

we had been together for a long time , I would say 

back then my thoughts were like "maybe he was bored with me " , " maybe he didn't like me so much anymore " or " maybe he didn't like me at the first place pun , syaf you yang perasan " 

but now my thoughts are " maybe he was going through something with his family and he didn't want to tell me for some unknown reasons " , " maybe he's waiting for the right time to tell me but then he became annoyed because I kept on pushing him , sending him a letter a week " .

and decided to call it off . 

or maybe I'm the one that is too extra making these excuses just for myself to realize that maybe the only reason is that I am a boring person and he didn't have any excuses for him to stay , so he left. It is that simple, syaf , WAKE UP , WAKE UP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i know for those who is reading , maybe tengah fikir yang " alah benda ni pun nak post " blabla . I know kak i know , but I think it's better for me to say or write it all here instead of bury all these thoughts in my head and crying myself to sleep  every week , penat .  

once I wrote in my blog, saying that "What can I say now is everything just go back to our normal life before we met each other and I think that’s beautiful ." 

but little did I know, we are still going to see each other , but I think it's fine . we're not even talking with each other pun ,  but if you are reading this hdssjdjsh I am so sorry for what I have done in my previous blogs , I am so not in controlled and started to write all those shit , I respect someone's privacy and I am so sorry . 

I hope everyone is doing alright during this hard times , I tried to bring some "positivity" in this blog , let me know if I succeed .Feel free to post some comments about what have you been working out right now . I think this blog is going to end here , thank you for reading , goodnight ^.^ 

maybe things would work out if both of us understand each other