some of us are actually afraid of being too happy because of the fear that something tragic might happen.

she was loved 

in her mind

"god , i cant stand this anymore , please i got so much regrets and if i keep on living , i live in my own regrets",  she said

she is scared 

scared living in her own dreams as her reality

and the reality was just her dreams\

she knew this is not good for her

but what did she do

nothing 

she doesnt know what to do 

she doesnt know what it's like to live anymore

she is scared 

with herself , she's scared that someday she lives in her dreams that she created and not accepting reality back

" no im not depressed, i havent seen the doctor , i dont want to make it any worse" 

true 

but until when 

denying things

denying feelings

pretending to be okay

no

it is not good

but what can she do

sitting in her bedroom at 12:45 p.m without eating anything for the past 2 days

she doesnt want to die

she wants to do a lot of things in her life

but please make this dreams stop

she doesnt want to live in her dreams anymore

shes tired

shes tired going back and forth with the dreams she created and her reality

shes confused 

she wants these voices to stop

stop following her anywhere

she is so sick of this

she had no one to listen to 

and she feel like nobody is listening to her but they are all looking at her

please

please

please

i want this to stop

please

please

please 

im tired 







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