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A year passed by

If I can be completely honest with you , all the things that I do in my life right now is only to have some distractions to not think about useless shitty things

I don’t even want to write on the day itself , I don’t post it anywhere else on social media , I’m not sad but for a moment I feel like I’m taking this shit really seriously , and I did , don’t know why

It’s a habit . on the day itself , I’m doing nothing , not even focused in class , not even doing homework if I had any , I don’t know ,  it really matters to me , I’m just as confused . I don’t think the feelings were real ? but I really took that seriously . . in my head of course .

I don’t even know what to write here but I feel like I have to because I want to read back my old posts when I’m 30 and think how crazy my time was .  I think at that time when I needed someone or a person you just came by macam singgah gitu hahaha and I became too attached for real , we both have our wrongs and I don’t mind about that.

What can I say now is everything just go back to our normal life before we met each other and I think that’s beautiful . Resetting life  really make changes ,  by correctly know how to make friends , by keeping a small circle , by not to trust anyone so easily , it makes me not wasting my time now and start doing whatever I want to achieve . . at least for me.

I know we’re completely different from each other and we’re not even compatible but long time ago I thought by myself “ hmm , if we are totally different , then there must be something for us to talk together , right ? “ , but I guess I’m wrong , maybe things would work out if both side trying together but hey I’m not complaining , we’re kids , we don’t know what we should do , we just want to follow other people and think that shit is true , it is true , but it’s not our time yet and I thank you for leaving.

A year just seems like a month but I’m grateful for all the times I had , at least I have an experience , right ?

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