9:30 thoughts .

Goals

do you know what are your goals ?

you don't ?

or you already have some in mind ?

I do believe that every single person should have their own goals no matter how long can it be or how unexpected can it be . For me , setting my goals keeps me on the right way of my action or  my words. 

2021 , I promised to myself , whatever happened , it happened , there's no need for me to think about last year's problem , what happened in the past , it stayed there , but somehow , I don't even can control myself  or follow everything that I set up right ? . So of course , I'm not that . .  good.

Anyways I don't want to talk about that actually . I want to talk about my goals for this year . For this year , hmm I pretty sure that I become more productive ? . idk . So the first goal for this year is to improvise my solat . Dude , let me tell you , whenever I solat right , like 5 times a day , it really makes me happy , it makes me happy because I've done my plan like I follow my schedules of the day , isn't that great , if you follow all of your plans in your planner in that one particular day , masyaallah it really makes me so so good. But as usual , I keep on delaying my solat , which is not good at all , and i need to fix this asap .

Second goal is I want to wear handsock whenever I go out , or in school , if you follow me and watch me on Instagram , I went out with my 2 of my primary friends , one of them is khai and the other is farisha , so we went out , and khai is actually went into SUPERB which is in bentong and I saw her wearing handsock , if I can be honest with you , I love how she dress up , she looked really cute but muslimah ? HAHAHA and I think i want to be somewhat-kind of like her, i'm not copying her style of course but i don't know man , I feel like I want to wear that , it's time for me to slowly cover my aurat ( which is very late now ) , I often wear skinny jeans , but now I just don't feel like wanting to wear them anymore.

and the third one is for me to eat healthy . I don't know , it feels like it's only for  the past 2 weeks but this thing has gone to 3 months now , we're in March already , I'm having a problem in eating from the early year , which is January , I explain my case here ,it's not that I don't have any food at home lol , no ,  it's not that I'm not hungry , I'm hungry but I just don't have the mood to eat anything ,  and at the end I'm eating not because I crave or want to eat them , it's because for me to continue living , eating is just a part of my sustenance , that's what I feel , I became thinner , more flat , last week, I checked my weight and I'm 39 kg , 4 kg gone , byebye .

alright , I think that's all I want to write today , actually no , I have a lot more but it's already 9:58 p.m , if you guys know me , everyday I sleep , sharp on 10 p.m , so I think i'll continue this tomorrow or anytime soon but yeah , that's it from me , I hope you drink a lot of water and I just want you to know that you are not alone and you are so loved .

thank you for reading my blog ^.^ .

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