alone

You know , for a 16 year old student , people would say that we're big enough to think what is right and what is wrong right ? . But all that can happen if only we have a right mind I mean like a right way of thinking because you know not everyone's brain is the same , we have different ideas , different way of thinking , different way of absorbing somewhat kind of thing , different knowledge , we got different input which proves that we're not the same at all .

 Due to these differences , we , I mean , I  , got to know how should I talk , how should I approach to certain type of people , and how should I keep in my circle ,like keeping my circle low because I think that I'm the type of person who does not trust any people so easily ? like I don't get along to people in a very short period of time , so if you think that I'm close to you , then congratulations , you are one of the most important person in my life. But don't get me wrong , I love all of my friends even though we are not talking to each other due to different interests , or we are just not talking to each other because we have our own separate group ? ,  I still love all of you and I care about you *but maybe not so much*

You know like , every time I stated my opinions with my uncles , aunties or my cousins I always feel like I left out , like they don't want to talk with me , even though I was the one who talk about a certain type of issue first . I'm bringing that because I wanted to talk to them,  I wanted to talk to someone because I have no one to talk to , except from my mother . She's truly the one for dunia akhirat I'm telling you . So keeping a low circle is also bad . like you don't have so many close friends just like the others but that's because you don't trust them . yep that is my case right here .

 So I don't need to complain right ? . Because this is the way that I live for so many years , maybe I can learn how to trust people , but trust me I've done that but it's not worth it , I've been losing so many important person in my life for the past 5 years , starting from abah to my uncle to my cousin to my tok , and recently I lost my tokwok . and my boyfriend ,  well he's not dead but he left so technically he left la. 

I hope whoever reading this will have excellent grades and . Don't forget to eat something today , be more productive , jangan tidur lambat sangat , and stay happy of course , goodbye for now , I'll write more soon , thank you for reading my blog 😄