maybe we are alike

If she was being honest, she didn’t really know how to say the things she needed to say. There were so many hearts, so many minds she felt responsible for so much so that writing this was less about clarity and more about trying to let go of the weight she'd been carrying for too long. A weight that clung to her chest, unrelenting. Was it naive of her? Naive to think that making someone happy would be enough for them to choose her? She gave deeply, genuinely. Sometimes she gave more than she could even give to herself. She lit up others in ways she never learned to do for her own soul. And in the end, it broke her. Yes, she got hurt. And worst of all, she blamed herself. She knew how it would end. She saw it coming. She recognized the signs. But knowing didn’t mean she was prepared. not for the ache, not for the shock, not for the unraveling that followed. She tried to brace herself, but no amount of readiness could soften the blow. What she felt was a chaos of emotions- anger, dis...

  hi it's me i felt like writing something tonight even if it's not usually my time of writing, i mean before this, yeah now, I just dont have the time for it, and i have a lot to do, a lot assignments, group project to think For the past few weeks i have been busy, busy with my studies, my assignments, works on the club, i even compete to be vice president or secretary for the next semester, it has been so so busy- with back to back event but i feel good, tired- but good. im still trying to figure out how to balance on everything, my relationship, my studies, my hobby for writing still trying to make time for myself, just me, laptop, writing with my headphones on with a volume of 80 because theyre noisy ( roomates/classmates) i applied for a maybank scholarship last semester, and i got an email for me to be in the next assesment, interview thing. Oh i already feel some butterflies in but so excited  i want to write more but at the back of my mind, its statistics tutorial, and...

 hi everyone it's me wow, it has been a long... long.... long time since i've blogged, and it is may too right now, shit time goes so fast, but what did i even been doing for the past months i am doing fine, healthier, full of love, a little bit depressed but thats normal the truth is- I always want to blog, I miss sitting and writing on my laptop, writing down my feelings guess i just don't have much time to spend - to think about feelings, to even acknowledge things life has been so much harder these days, ever since - idk forever it's not like i wanted to sound like an ungrateful person, sure , all things have good in the end  it's just sometimes it isn't fair things happened, and i don't know if i am supposed to heal it or ignore it i mean i know the best way is to handle with it- if it is only such a problem but what if it's just a traumatic experience, a hurtful moment it is not a problem , i guess, i don't need to deal with it right at that mo...