maybe we are alike

  i celebrated this one birthday before, hoped that i would continue to celebrate it forever and ever but i was wrong again, like always we are over; it's not that i wasn't happy, and it's not because i was happy. i was tired asking for love, and he was tired doing things im asking him to do i had some fun moments, happy moments but i found that, no matter how much promises you made to a person, there are always reason for them to be broken we were young 15-18, we practically let each other into our own lives and ranted to each other to lessen the burdens in our minds. helped each other a lot, fought with each other a lot until i forgot the good in us, and too consumed with the bad ones you are a good man, i tried to stayed and proved to myself that you were the one for me with all those tears and screams,  my efforts to stay and pretend that you are indeed for me, were just wasted at first, im mad. im mad over the fact that it was wasted just like that, but i couldn't ...

  it's 25th february 2024 im trying to pull myself together my midterms exams in 1 week time i feel so worried and anxious  i only hope i can get all A's this time please god

  hi everyone, it's me, syaf 2 days ago was my love's 19th birthday and in the midst of craziness in dengkil, we took a day off to spend together, celebrating our first-of-birthdays together. i love him guys, and i am falling in love even more when he loves me too.  i am not the type who's giving only one present, if i can- i will give everything he wants, anything he wants. just to make him feel loved, and happy but it's such a shame, i bought 2 presents for him online, one was stolen ( thank god i got it back ) and one is stuck at the shipping place, i feel bad, i feel like its not enough.  on his birthday, we met for lunch and he opened the one present i gave, it's something that he already mentioned before but i am really worried he doesn't like it. i wrote him TWO letters, but i (totally) made it difficult to read, because yk every man needs a challenge. I might cried a little bit after he opened it, i don't know, i just really scared of what he thinks,...