maybe we are alike

  Hello everyone, it's syaf I have been consistent in writing blogs every Saturday in December and .... I thought I can make it for the following months. It turns out, I can't. I can't be consistent every saturday, man. I'm busy . i don't even know what i am so busy for, but i just cant find a time to write on saturday, so it seems Few days ago I went out with my boyfriend for the first time in weeks, I just love him guys. He is so sweet, I had no money to spend on silly things, but he did spend his money :( i feel bad but it's fine his birthday is around the corner anyways so I'll make it up through his birthday presents. And guys, what do i even give a man presents anyways, it's so harddd. I won't be silly and give him fresh flowers, i won't make a same mistake again. ( though i still stand on my stance that man deserves flowers too, but i dont think they know how to appreciate as it takes a lot of effort to take care of fresh flowers ) okay ma...

  hello everyoneeeeee, it's me syaf I'm in a good mood today despite a boring day, I feel happy, I feel healthy but mind you, I haven't eaten anything since morning, and I did in fact eat something. Maggi tomyam, my love. I never tried maggi kari, or any other maggi other than tomyam and ayam. I don't know i dont eat spicy food, so I never even want to try it it has been over a week im in dengkil for my second semester and LAST semester. I got nervous for the first week but ah, it's nothing to worry about, the subjects got tougher and more complicated but I enjoyed it. I love being here, I love the friends I made when I'm here, even though it's not a lot, but I love being friends with them, they're funny and it makes me comfortable with them. My classmates are fine, perhaps just a tiny bit of interaction between the other guys in the class but I don't mind. I just hope we can go somewhere together as a whole and spend more time together.  my new hous...

  hello everyone , it's me syaf Sorry I couldn't be consistent in writing blogs every week, well I just missed ONE week of blogs so apala sangat. I'm in dengkil now, surviving my first week of my last semester here.  i missed last week's blogs because I was busy working, im tired man 8-6 pm with like half an hour break I'm tired by 8 pm already, I showered and just straight to bed How am i feeling ? like right now ? I dont know, I feel so many emotions in me. i'm excited to learn new stuffs, making new friends. I'm anxious because it's my last sem here and I need to give my all.  Being here does give me a little bit of comfort, i don't know how to explain it properly comfort in what way you may ask ? myself ??? i dont know- maybe it gives me comfort because i am far from home it doesn't mean i dont love my home or anything i just love not being bossed around, that's all my relationship right now- he was fine, we fought a lot he said he's ...

  hello everyone !! it's 2024 now it's such a shame that I didn't write any blog specifically to end my 2023. But oh well, I'm here now in 10 days I'll be in dengkil all over again. To be honest, i don't want to leave Kuantan yet. I'm gonna miss my mom the last two week before we entered 2024, i started working at my old work place. I did continue my daily work to make toast, croissants and stuffs. it's fun but it's tiring. like i get it now, the work is so simple, you just have to make things for people to eat but its so fucking tiring. you have to constantly move around and use your legs a lot. when im home after work, i legit can't feel my legs anymore but its only for awhile. I'm still waiting for my salary though, the boss said he will give on Tuesday then he moved it forward to wednesday afternoon and its thursday already now. whatever, as long as he pays me. I'm not JUST helping him when he pm-ed me if i can help him to work over t...