maybe we are alike

  hello, it's me, syaf a bit late in writing this week's blog. I'm just overwhelmed by the fact that I'm home now.  it has been 4 days, since im home.  and i have to say I'm glad that I'm home but I also have mixed feelings about it.  pretty sure this feelings might be around for a bit. I just don't know what to do, I'm bored.  for the past 3 days I have been knitting and crochetting back ! my long lost hobby yeah. i enjoyed making cute frog and teddy bear keychains. I hope i can make them pretty enough, because I'm planning to sell in uni :))  i don't know if anybody even wants to buy it from me, but I just do them now as a hobby. I found time to read as well.  two days ago i met up with my nenek angkat. which is my mother's mak angkat ? yea something like that. there were 2 of them but one of them, i called her tokwok died when i was form 1.  being home always reminds me of people who had left. left me. my dad, my tokwok. those two are very...

 hi everyone, it's syaf again today's blog i want to share my latest experience with grab.  it's the kind of experience where I would just woken up randomly at 3 AM being reminded by that.  so that day, me and housemate went out to buy some food for our picnic the day after. Decided to grab home around 7:30, and I was the one who booked the grab Some things happened along the way that makes me annoyed and frustrated, so I won't bother topup my grab pay and  instead i used my card. We had the car at first, but the motherfucker cancelled my order when the card is already charged. RM 32 ringgit. but for some reason when I checked, they charged me RM64??????????????????. ah what the fuck is this shit I was clearly annoyed, frustrated and tired. So I ordered the grab again, and we got it. A man. The driver was a man. and im fine with it. until we hopped into the car. I took the front seat beside the driver, just to get a large leg space initially. I was frustrated about t...

hello everyone, it's me syaf currently sitting on my study table around 11:24 pm - just finished studying for physics final exam tomorrow. I am doing quite well, i guess. This 2-3 weeks are just me studying for the final exam. Tbh, I am so nervous for it. In  10 days I will be home, enjoying my semester break. I have plans about it already, maybe I'll share it soon well last week I had my chemistry and mathematics exam. Frankly saying, I thought I was doing quite good on chemistry and mathematics. But my confidence for mathematics ran low. That makes me sad too, considering my group project's carry mark are for sure not as high. I really hope I can do physics well tomorrow. I did 7 past year final exam questions, are they enough for me to understand though I thought I was going to sleep soon but I remembered I haven't blog in a while. I miss doing this, I miss talking about feelings here. I miss ranting around and not giving a fuck about every single thing what other...