maybe we are alike

bad days tend to happen , I know that I do have my own as well but it sucks seeing your loved ones having a bad day and you just couldn't do anything about it , not that they wanted to get helped - i mean they're just want to be alone for a while , I know it , I understand exactly how it feels and I totally agree with it. You just want to be alone , not texting people , not communicating with people , have no absolute mood to do anything , maybe few things that you love - to keep you going in a day I assumed. My loved one had or has a bad day . I don't really know now because he seems not in the level of his good mood yet , probably like 3/10 . his head hurts , keeps on sneezing which this may sounds like I'm a creep but I like listen to him sneezing , okay - maybe that's too much information , but it is what it is and it's cute ok , i like cute things especially on him ( sounds like a creep also but i dont think i am )  my boyfriend , if you are reading this - ...

  i think i want to give up there's nothing left in here for me in this world im honestly  done with life done with the one that should be taking care of me people say i will get used to it  get used by what ? get used being ignored ? get used being left alone ? get used being not as important as i am before ? it's different now she's different now sometimes i just want to  be with somebody  cry to somebody and when i think that I have someone to talk to he didnt want to and it hurts so much because I know sometimes it happens  and it's totally okay  but in my head , i think of all the worst things that could happen im done crying alone would it be better  if im not here  would it be better  for me , if im not here