maybe we are alike

 18 A year passed by If I can be completely honest with you , all the things that I do in my life right now is only to have some distractions to not think about useless shitty things I don’t even want to write on the day itself , I don’t post it anywhere else on social media , I’m not sad but for a moment I feel like I’m taking this shit really seriously , and I did , don’t know why It’s a habit . on the day itself , I’m doing nothing , not even focused in class , not even doing homework if I had any , I don’t know ,   it really matters to me , I’m just as confused . I don’t think the feelings were real ? but I really took that seriously . . in my head of course . I don’t even know what to write here but I feel like I have to because I want to read back my old posts when I’m 30 and think how crazy my time was .   I think at that time when I needed someone or a person you just came by macam singgah gitu hahaha and I became too attached for real , we both have our w...

    I remember the day before you left me The day when I kissed your forehead Thinking that I could kiss them again Massaging my heart alone Reminding that everything will be alright You will be alright I said ‘good night ‘ without knowing that is the last goodnight I ever said But I was wrong You left me When I need a full attention from you Look at me now abah , I’m desperate from anyone’s attention I miss you abah but I can’t have a fact in my mind That you are gone It hurts me when at some point I realized you really gone , you are not with me now It hurts me when I cry randomly in my classes or when I eat just because I miss you  I thought you only gone for work But it has been 5 years now Where are you

Goals do you know what are your goals ? you don't ? or you already have some in mind ? I do believe that every single person should have their own goals no matter how long can it be or how unexpected can it be . For me , setting my goals keeps me on the right way of my action or  my words.  2021 , I promised to myself , whatever happened , it happened , there's no need for me to think about last year's problem , what happened in the past , it stayed there , but somehow , I don't even can control myself  or follow everything that I set up right ? . So of course , I'm not that . .  good. Anyways I don't want to talk about that actually . I want to talk about my goals for this year . For this year , hmm I pretty sure that I become more productive ? . idk . So the first goal for this year is to improvise my solat . Dude , let me tell you , whenever I solat right , like 5 times a day , it really makes me happy , it makes me happy because I've done my plan like I ...

happy birthday , to the person who once I had , to the once I cherished  You really worth millions times even though you feel like you’re not but trust me my dear , there is someone who will remind you , who will take care of you , who will love you , who will do everything for you . You worth million times , you are .  it was childish , but it was fun and i can feel the warm in us . But i'm writing on here because if I write on Twitter , I'll be in pain to look up for my tweets later on . happy 16    , I hope you get whatever you want , whatever you hope , whatever you doa. Be a wonderful and great brother for your siblings alright . Be happy always . I know it's hard but just be happy whenever , wherever , whoever you like to be happy , maybe you'lll find something in your life . I should stop now , okay bye bye .