heavy heart but it's over now
hi, it's me it's been awhile to be honest, i don't feel like it has been a month yet, i barely make friends here, i dont, feel any joy, just study but i joined a club so i guess it's good, to have some friends but im not talking about that, i dont feel like it few days ago, i experienced a thing that i really- scared is that the word, i don't find any suitable word for it it's sad, but im glad it's over im heartbroken but at least i don't have to handle it anymore it's disgusting but i feel a bit of hapiness when people ask me, i always say im an only child- when the truth is not i have, other siblings on my dad's side, mom's side, its complicated but i am, an only child, i grew up alone, play alone, fucking yea im an only child but not on paper though i met my " siblings ", and i don't ever feel like they are one, how could i they verbally said they don't like me when i was a child but i don't know, i feel a weird fe...