life updates
hello, it's syaf ah where do I even begin it was a hectic month, with midterm exams and a group project for computer science. Though it was stressful, but it was fun while it lasts. I found a guy. well not really found, I just noticed. He treats me well, speaks to me properly, a gentleman, a lover (????????????????????????????) way too fast for it right. but i dont know, he treats me so well, so i feel the same thing. maybe i will get the love I deserve but maybe not. I won't have such a high expectations on that because I wouldnt know for sure if hes gonna be here until idk, forever but i really hope he is. I am happier now. Now that im home, sleeping in a very same room where I cried myself to sleep every night makes me feel, pity. pity for myself. I love seriously and when i do, I loved hard. Back then i felt like I couldn't live a day without him, I stayed just because I feel I cannot live my life dealing with the pain of breaking up. It hurts and i am hurting. It'...