till my hair and bones fall apart
been so long since I've written a blog. I miss doing this every once in a while. It's just I don't really have time for it or when I do, I used it for something else, something that I thought can bring me comfort but maybe it's just an illusion that I made up or we made in order to ease our hearts- with lies. It works, it really works- to pretend where everything is fine and you don't mind anything happens and you're living your best life. The last blog that I wrote was 2 months ago - still depressing blogs. I think this place is just for me to write everything I want, the place where I won't make anyone annoyed by what I'm talking about, the place where I thought they really are listening to me even if there's no one here. Kind of my safe place and yet it's quite heartbreaking. My life throughout this year is full of emotions and stressful academic validations. The best thing that happened is I got what's mine back and I'm grateful fo...