maybe we are alike

3rd week of January hi it's me  been through some hectic weeks for sure , I have not even get any chance to update on here Life gets pretty busy in the moment , still going to be in the following month I assume So far , January is still been kind to me , giving me chances to work my life out together by my beloved friends , IN SCHOOL . which really makes me so so so SO relieved . With that I can TOTALLY see the difference , either it is from my perspective or it is from theirs . Seeing each other do really makes me feel alive , not that I am not being grateful about what I had before , It just feels right in school , seeing all my friends perangai , moody in the morning or a sudden confession of mature things, giving me joy and it is more than enough . giving me an understanding lovely partner though we are still trying our best to work it out I hope . But he's so sweet , he treats me well than he ever did and that's making me feel something. I feel something . the energy i...

  sometimes I wondered  I have nothing compared to others Not that pretty , not that smart , not that interesting they are I'm completely not sometimes I wondered  if what I have now is not supposed to be mine and if it's not then I'll be crushed in any way but that's just selfish to keep whatever I thought once is mine rather than to let it have its own joy I'm confused whether to let go or let it be if I let it go , I'll be  a total loser  if I let it be , still like a total loser As far as I think about it Deep down in the bottom of my heart so many worries my dear lamp post , I feel like I just keep you for my own. I might not be enough and  for some reason , I feel like this because there are few friends which I think they'll love do whatever you do and I'll be honest  I'm afraid if someday you left once again with the same old reason not that I don't love whatever you do , I love all those things,  but trust me wallahi I don't find myse...