thoughts at 8:30 a.m
for the first time of us yet the thousands I had I am being emotional unhappy, miserable , sorry , regrets all in one at a time scanning those words today , makes me realize I have nothing to be with for the first time of us yet the thousands I had I am confused green lines by lines makes me wonder now I should've wait to hear everything read everything but it's okay now slowly , I'm letting those regrets go if it takes my nights , or if it takes my appetites , good enough for me but i feel like I distanced myself from other people I am not speaking to anyone not texting people anymore i feel lost in somewhere that I am not ?